the drama of my life

“Nothing stays the same”, “The only constant thing in this world is change.” I’m sure you’ve heard about these two famous lines before and I know you have your own story you can share with regards to these things. But for now, I want to share mine. There’s always in one person’s life when we have to cope up and deal with the changes we encounter. Merielle, who’s my best friend since high school never stop reminding me not to fret about these changes.

Changes are inevitable. You can’t stop things from changing. There are two kinds of change, the good change and the bad change. The only distinction between the two is your initial reaction to the that change. But I’m sure both of them will somehow lead to the betterment of one’s life. I’m certain that most of us like things to stay the way they are. It’s always hard for us to compromise. We prefer to live the life we are used, to rather than to cope up with new things. But now,,, what the heck? I don’t care anymore!!! I’m not afraid of changes and I’m happy with the feelings it bring me.

You must be wondering what I’m trying to imply. Nope! I’m not making a fool of you by reading this stupid things I’m writing, and I’m not trying to waste your precious time.

Ka-dramahan ko ito…
I use to ask God and myself why does things change. Bakit pa? Okey lang nman ako dito eh,, kontento nman ako sa buhay ko ngayon,,, wala nman akong nasasaktan,,, masaya nman lahat, diba??? Hay,,, ka-immaturan ko tlga. That’s what I am before, imprudent and foolish about how things work. Not yet abreast of the real world. But now, the point turns and I come to realize the good things that change has done to me. Reading my past entries, you can see bitter thoughts running to and fro my head. Entries that reflect how hard it is for me to live my life without him. Gosh,,, nasaktan nya tlga ako. But that’s the reason why I am happy right now. The change that leads to the betterment of my life.

According to Maslow’s all-famous hierarchy of needs, after we’ve come to fulfill our physiological (basic – food, water, clothing, etc.) needs, safety and security needs, love and belongingness needs, and self-esteem needs, the only thing that were waiting for is the point where we are able to reach the highest potential our life can ever achieve… SELF-REALIZATION. I’m not saying that I am finally at that point in time, but the feeling I’m having is just like the feeling of being there.

Some things are meant to happen…
The thing that happened between my ex-boyfriend and I were written in the stars. God intends to make me suffer, in order for me to learn something from him. I may have cried so many tears, but those tears are worthy not for him, but for the result that had made me s stronger individual. I know you’re wondering what happen that made me so inspired to write... What is it that Indira realized?

Its not important to know the reason why I am writing now,,, hindi na kailangan yon. (Loud sigh…) Ang sarap ng feeling! Ang gaan-gaan ng loob ko. After seeing Nico again and after hearing news about his life right now, bigla na lang gumaan ang loob ko. Hindi ko nga alam kung baket eh,,, siguro dahil mei napatunayan ako.

The process of letting go…
My advice to everyone, (1) Never stop thinking about that person, even if it’s tormenting every part of you. Because when you don’t, that’s the time your ghost from the past comes hunting you again. Aba,,, masakit ata yan! That happens to me most of the time, and the end-product,,, bucket of tears falling from my eyes. This is what I call AFTERSHOCK. Just when you thought you’ve moved on,,, malalaman mo na lang na hindi pa pala. (2) Talk to someone or at least find some way to release the anger in you. Why do we have to do that? Simply to express our feelings. There are several ways to express what it is that’s hurting you or just holding you back. You can express it through the traditional way of writing or you can release it using the modern way like drinking (alcohol ah..). I’m not advising you to get late or become drunk, ok. Always’ remember: IN MODERATION. (3) Make-over. I’m not just talking about the superficial makeover where you have to spend so much money from your allowance, but also the spiritual makeover. This is what I call STARTING OVER. (4) Divert your attention. Make yourself busy by doing things you usually enjoy. Be the fun-loving girl that you are. It will not only make you happy but it will also make you look younger and prettier.

Life is a journey… Learn to move on. It’s not the end of the world. ‘Till next time.

He's not my L.O.S.S!!!

Yeah, yeah, yeah… Here I go again with these bitter thoughts that will surely knock your heads off. I may sound so fiendish this time but I’m sure you’ll understand why.

It all started when we fall in love with the wrong person. Everything bad will follow, I promise you that. Hay, why do we have to fall for them anyways? They’re such a time-waster!

Nico? Who’s that? Sorry, but I don’t know him. Not anymore…

Ok, ok, ok, I confess. I was in love with him before. And when I say in love, it means I was or I’ve been terribly stupid, horribly blind and tragically deaf, all at the same time. Can you imagine that? Well, that’s the magic or should I say the jinx of falling in love. You don’t know how bad you can get.

I can’t blame myself anyway. I’m only human, a mistake-maker, an individual who sometimes makes the wrong decisions. Guilty for some, but I am what I am.

I used my heart over my mind. I let my feelings dominate over me being wiser than I am. That’s what you get when you’re gambling with love. It’s a 50/50, win or loose basis. You may become the luckiest winner or the biggest loser of all time. In my case, you decide what I am…

But it’s not about me being unfortunate about that love I had with him. It’s about me being lucky because I am free. It’s about me being much more aware about my life right now. I have total control of myself. I have all the time in the world to enjoy my singledom. I may not be happy every second, every minute of my days, but at least I’m happy knowing that there’s a better life waiting for me out there. And that I know there is someone who is willing to reciprocate the love I am willing give.

He is not my lost. Why? Because he is the biggest loser of all. I am the winner here. And he is the one who lost me. He looses his chance of being with the person who is deeply in love with him. He lost the person who is willing to offer all that she has and all that she is. He lost the girl who accepted everything that HE IS without any hesitations. He lost his chance, he lost his opportunity, he even lost in the game the he, himself made.

Remembering the dead

Chills in my spine, goose bumps all over my body. Why do I feel so spooky whenever I think about the dead? Maybe because we’ve started to attach this word with ghosts, spirits and other supernatural beings. But what’s the real meaning of this “Remembering the dead” thing. For me, , remembering the dead simply means paying tribute to our love ones who passed away. It’s a day for us to recall all the goodness they did when they were still living in this superficial world.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!

Karma by Alicia Keys

Werent't you the one who said that you don't want me enymore
And how you need your space and give the keys back to your door
And how I cry and try and try to make you stay with me
But still you said the love was gone and that I had to leave

Now you
Talking about a family
Now you
Saying I complete your dream
Now you
Saying I'm your everything
Your confusing me, what your saying to me
Don't play with me, don't play with me cus

What goes around comes around
What goes up most come down
Now who's crying, desiring to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What goes up most come down
Now who's crying, desiring to come back to me

I remember when I was sitting home alone
Waiting for youTo 3 o'clock in the morn'
And when you came home you'd always had some sorry excuse
And explaining to me like I was some kind of a fool
I sacrefice the things I want just to do things for you
But when it's time to do for me
You never come trough
Now youWanna be a part of me
Now you
Have so much to say to me
Now you
Wanna make time for me
What you doing to me, your confusing me
Don't play with me, don't play with me cus

What goes around comes around
What goes up most come down
Now who's crying, desiring to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What goes up most come down
Now who's crying, desiring to come back to me

I remember when I was sitting home alone
Waiting for youTo 3 o'clock in the morn'
Night after night knowing something's going on
What's that number for
Lord knows it wasn't easy believe me
Never thaught you'd be the one that would deceive me
And never do what your supose to do
No need to punch me boo cus
I won't play you cus

diba ang ganda? when i first heard and saw this song on channel v,, God, it really got me. the lyrics was oh so true and the rhythm will really make u move...

The Alchemist - by Paolo Coelho

At last,,, natapos ko na!!! After 3 days of reading, ive finally finished reading the whole story of The Alchemist. What can I say about the book? Well,,, it was a truly an inspirational one. And I want to take the opportunity to thank my friend ro-anne for introducing me to the book. It made me realize so many things not only about life and love, but of living ur dreams and making the most out of what u have. Im not really the type who enjoys reading pocket books but this had made me change my ideology. Read dis book and ull see why. Its written by Paolo Coelho and was a short one written with simplicity compard to the other books sold on book stores.

Here are some of my favorite lines… read them so that u could have insight about the story.

v People learn, early in their lives, what is their reason for being.
v If u start out by promising what u don’t even have yet, ull loose ur desire to work toward getting it.
v The principle of favorability… when u play cards at the first time, ur amost sure to win. Beginner’s luck.
v In order to find the treasure, u will have to follow the omens. God has prepared a path for everyone to follow. You just have to read the omens that he left for you.
v Don’t forget that everything you deal with is only one thing and nothing else. And don’t forget the language of the omens. And above all, don’t forget to follow ur personal legend through to its conclusion.
v The secret of happiness is to see all the marvels of the world and never to forget the drops of the oil in the spoon.
v When u really want something, the unvirse always conspires in ur favor.
v When I had my sheep, I was happy, and I made those aroud me happy. People saw me coming and welcomed me. But mow im sad and alone. Im going to become bitter and distrustful of people because one person betrayed me. Im going to hate those who had found their treasure because I never found mine. And im going to hold on to hat little I have, because im too insignificant to conquer the world.
v I see the world in terms of what I would like to see happen, not what actually does.
v There was a language in the world that everyone understood, a language the boy had used throughout the time that he was trying to improve things at the shop. It was the language of enthusiasm, of things accomplished with love and purpose, as part of the search for something believed in and desired.
v Intuition is really a sudden immersion of the soul into the universal current of life, where the histories of all people are connected, and we are able to know everything, because its all written there.
v People need not fear of the unknown if they are capable of achieving what they need and want.
v When u want something with all ur heart, that’s when you are closest to the Soul of the World. Its always a positive force.
v Everything on earth is being continuously transformed because the earth is alive… and it has a soul. We are a part of that world so we rarely recognize that it is working for us.
v All things are manifestations of one thing only. All the soul of the World was the language with which things communicated.
v This natural world is only an image and a copy of paradise. The existence is simply a guarantee that there exists a world that is perfect. God created the world so that, through its visible objects, men could understand the marvels of his wisdom. That’s what I mean by action.
v If you want to understand the Soul of the World, all u have to do is to contemplate a single grain of and ull see in it the marvels of creation.
v Why should I listen to my heart? Because u will never again be able to keep it quiet. Even if u pretend not to have heard what it tells u, it will always be there inside u, repeating to u what ur thinking about life and about the world.
v Why do we have to listen to our hearts? My heart is agitated, it has its dreams, it gets emotional and its become passionate over someone. It asks things of me and it keeps me from sleeping many nights, when im thinking about her. –Well, that’s good. Ur heart is alive. Keep listening to what it has to say.
v Listen to ur heart even if its treasonous. Treason is a blow that comes unexpectedly. If u know ur heart well, it will never be able to do that to u. Because u know its dreams and wishes, and u will know how to deal with them.
v U will never be able to escape from ur heart. So its better to listen to what it has to say. That way, ull never have to hear an anticipated blow.
v My heart is afraid that it will have to suffer. – Tell ur heart that the fear of suffering is no worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second’s encounter with God and with eternity.
v Before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we’ve learned as we’ve moved toward that dream. That’s the point at which most people give up. It’s the point at which, as we say in the language of the dessert, one dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon.
v Every search begins with beginner’s luck and every search ends in a victor’s being severely tested.
v The darkest hour of the night came just before the dawn.v Don’t give in to ur fears, if u do, u wont be able to talk to ur heart.
v There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve. The fear of failure.
v When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better, too.
v Love is the force that transforms and improves the Soul of the World and the world we live in will be either best or worse, depending on whether we become better or worse. And that’s where the power of love comes in. Because when we love, we always strive to become better than we are.
v The boy reached through the Soul of the World, and saw that it was a part of the soul of God. And he saw that the soul of God was his own soul. And that he, a boy, could perform miracles.
v Be aware of the place where u are brought to tears. That’s where I am and that’s where ur future is.

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