Does Anyone Know???

The deepest thought that has been troubling me since this month started. I hate to admit it but I really did feel a little lonely specially when all these commercials and movies started invading the television. All those kissing and making love.... argh!!! Would it be possible for me to finally have that love back again in my heart? I mean,,, can I just fall in love again??? Kahit na ngayong month lang? Kc nman eh, kung kelan pa totally contented na ko being single, don pa to biglang manggugulo. Naisip ko lang,,, pano kaya ako magkaka-bf eh lahat ng lalake intimidated sken. Hindi ko nman masisisi sarili ko,,, way ko kc to para hindi na masaktan uli. Mas mabuti nang matakot silang gaguhin ako kaysa pa-easy easy sila sken. Ano ako,, magpapaloko uli??? Aba,, nadala na ata ako noh! Eh un nga ata problema ko eh,, I keep on pushing those guys away kc my instincts are telling me that they'll just gonna take advantage of me. That those guys are no good for someone like me,, kc ako ung tipong laging seryoso at laging nagmamahal. Ganon nga ba ako??? Basta, un ang tingin ko sa sarili ko. Kahit na hindi ako showy at affectionate,, I have my own way of telling the guy I love that he's special to me. Panget nga ako ma-inlove eh,,, nasisira buhay ko. Hindi ako nakakatulog coz I always think of him before I go to sleep,,, hindi ako nakakakain ng maayos kc I became consciouos of my figure,,, hindi ako nakakapag-aral ng maayos kc I make sure that he's ok all the time. Am I a paranoid lover or am I just not used of being inlove? Kc nman noh,,, minsan lang ako magkabf,, hindi kc ako nakikipag-flirtan lang. Gusto ko perfect relationship,, perfect lover and perfect moment lague... eh wla nmang ganon eh kaya nga nasanay na kong makontento na single na lang ako. No problem at all about those bullshits. Wlang mga selos at away,, wlang mga kagagahan at kung ano ano pa. Kaso lang,,, mahirap din minsan. There will always come a time that you'll be jealous seeing a happy couple. Tulad na lang ngayon,,, seeing my friend Eunice happy with his man Edward. Aba,,, swerte na sha tlga!!! Kaibigan ko na rin kaya si Edward ngayon,, and knowing how much he love my friend is a good reason for me to get jealous kahit na masaya ako para sa kanila. Dont get me wrong ah,, I dont like Edward,, Im just jealous because they look so happy when they're together. Naiiichapwera nga ako minsan eh. But that never became a problem to me,, sanay ata akong magsolo at maglider-lideran. Pano,, nagiging uto-uto ung dalawa sken kc nahihiya silang nakikita ko ka-cornyhan nila. hehehe!!! Ayoko na nga,,, wla nang kwenta to! Basta, I'll have my own time with that. Love will always knock on my door because I know Im a special person. Im a unique individual and Im a nice person. Diba? Todo build up na to ah..... hehehe!!!!

Oi, nga pla... ung mga pics, just check it out. Pumayat ako ng sobra kaya naninibago rin ako sa bagong look ko. Nakakaasar nga eh,,, tingting na ata ako.