Where is Christmas?

This night, after a long day of doing nothing at home, I decided to read something uplifting that could make my night better than yesterday. So I hurriedly get the book I was reading since the start of this sem and started reading it again. But after I’ve read a couple of pages,, I caught myself uninterested and bored. Then, the newspaper suddenly caught my attention. And as I scan through its pages,,, I ended up finding nothing about Christmas. And so, a question just pop-up off of my head,,, Where is the spirit of Christmas???

I know that newspapers are for people to know about the current events that’s happening in this world, but is Christmas not part of it? I know that there’s so many things that’s been happening in this country but why cant they just give Christmas a page or two in their columns. People do not only need to know about crimes, death and politics but they also need entertainment or something uplifting that could make the readers feel happier.

to L.o.V.e...

Anyone who has gone through the agony of losing someone she loves so much will still wish against all odds to have that love back again. But, sometimes a love lost is a love gone forever. No amount of hope can bring to life a relationship that just died a natural death. Set yourself free. Let your heart spread its wings and fly. Remember, it may rain for 40 days and 40 nights, but still will not rain forever. One day the pouring will stop and there will be plenty of branches where you can find rest. One of these is where you will build your nest and start over again. It's never too late. Remember, you may find love and lose it but, "WHEN LOVE DIES, YOU NEVER HAVE TO DIE WITH IT".Remember that you cannot be a redeemer all your life. The best way to weigh a relationship is out in the test of fire. You cannot be a sooner of your mistake forever. Remember, we all fail and make wrong decisions but our blunders are meant not to bury us deep in misery but to teach us the valued lessons of life. Loving is always a learning process.With love, we learn how to care and sacrifice. We learn to share and reach out. We learn to be unselfish and give more than we can. And when everything doesn't end well, we learn how it feels to fall, we strive to get back on our feet and move on. This is where we learn that "Life doesn't end where our heartaches begin".THERE IS NO FUTURE IN A RELATIONSHIP OF LIES ANDSELFISHNESS. It's true, there's life in love. But, there can still be life even after losing love if you leave the past behind and let your heart heal and give you the chance to find yourself again. The success of a relationship lies not only in the beauty of its beginning but in its consistency. Make a choice not on impulse but a decision based on a healthy balance of mind and heart. Let us always remember that "HAPPINES IS NOT A MATTER OF DESTINY BUT A MATTER OF CHOICE". There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of its when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves."YOU DON'T HAVE TO FORGET SOMEONE YOU LOVE. WHAT YOU NEED TO LEARN IS HOW TO ACCEPT THE VERDICT OF REALITY WITHOUT BEING BITTER OR SORRY FOR YOURSELF. YOU WOULD BETTER OFF GIVING THAT THE DEDICATION AND LOVE TO SOMEONE MORE DESERVING". Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow."IF YOU LOSE LOVE, THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE FAILED IN LOVE. CRY IF YOU HAVE TO, BUT MAKE SURE THAT TEAR WASHES AWAY THE HURT AND THE BITTERNESS THAT THE PAST LEFT YOU WITH. LET GO OF YESTERDAY AND LOVE WILL FIND ITS BACK TO YOU". And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.A woman on the rebound could easily fall for sweeping emotions and be made to falsely believe that she finally stumbled upon the right man when what she just found is only someone to cover up for the love she lost. A man who makes promises with words and not with actions may never live up to fulfill them. "IT'S TRUE THAT LOVE CAN WAIT FOREVER BUT IT IS CRAZY TO STUBBORNLY HOPE FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T EVEN CARE OR UNDERSTAND HOW WE FEEL".Loving someone is never a sin. It is what people do out of love that sometimes makes it all wrong. The selfish desire to want that person is what makes it a sin. Don't think only of your feelings for real love doesn't have a place for selfish people. When there is love, there is always sacrifice.When we love someone, we NEVER easily GIVE UP on that person. Even if we get hurt badly we always try to find a way to ease the pain and learn to understand and forgive. Loving too much doesn't hurt. It is when we expect this love to be reciprocated that we begin to seek approval and acceptance of the things we have done and when we are taken for granted and rejected, we curse the very same love that we once freely and happily offered."DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME WAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO NEVER REALLY CARED ABOUT HOW YOU WOULD HAVE FELT. OPEN YOUR HEART AGAIN AND GIVE YOURSELF THE CHANCE TO FIND THE MAN WHO WOULD MAKE LOVING WORTH THE PAIN AND THE SACRIFICE. Just like anything else, our love grows weak and extent. Beyond that, it withers without any hope of recovery and soon dies".God wakes us up in the midst of a storm to teach us a lesson. He takes away people we love, so we can learn to value love itself. He makes us cry so hard so we can see clearly when we open our eyes. He makes us bitter so we can realize that there is no genuine happiness if we think only of our needs and not of others.Relationships built on jealousy and selfishness is doomed from the very beginning. The hardest part of losing love is letting go and moving on. Most of us cry endlessly over things that could have been but never will be."God allows us to experience pain to make us stronger and better persons. He will see us through the most trying and difficult times in our lives and only if we put our trust In Him we can learn to find joy in our tears and happiness in our sorrows".In many failed relationships, separation comes as the inevitable choice but moving on always proves to be twice as difficult as letting go. Sometimes, the end of a relationship is imposed on us, but our choice to hold on is always beyond the control of circumstancesLetting go is a decision that can never be dictated onus. It is a resolve we make ourselves. Acceptance is the key to a new beginning and time is the healer of all wounds. Even if the storm casts its fearful shadow, there will always be light after our darknessand lonely moments. There is always a hope for those who believe. There is always a chance for those who try. "Losing someone we may not be a loss at all but a blessing because someone even more is yet to come".There is nothing wrong in expressing our feelings to someone we love, but "we must always be sensitive to the signals that tell us when to rationalize and be sensible." There comes a time in our lives when we would fall for someone who wouldn't be as interested as we are because his attention is focused on someone else.There are many times when we love but don't get loved in return. There are times when the sign ahead says stop but we still stubbornly head on. We would say our love is unconditional, but if it really is, then we should never feel bad. But why do we get frustrated when love turns sour? Because we still subconsciously seek acceptance and assurance from the people we care about.Being in love can be the most wonderful thing we could experience but if the feeling begins to consume our whole beings, then we have to stop and let our mind sand not our hearts dictate our actions. Only when we learn to accept our fate and understand the meaning o four failures we can truly go on with life without having to look back and cry over the things that could have been but will never be......

indira on my duty 

MODEL- lehiyo!

Struting through the runway
Wow! A gorgeous bod as they all say
With confidence as high as the sky
And vanity crazy just to be desired

But do you really know them
Are they the bright ones like the gems
Or are they as clueless as they seem to be
Proud and brimming with debauchery

Oh yeah, baby! You may have it all
A certified model, sexy and tall
The looks, the body, the attitude, the brains
A mind and thinking of a rubber strained

Hate to burst you bubble boy
You're only nothing but a toy
A lifeless dummy with a sexy body
Bolemic, thin, malnourished and unhealthy

One, two, three, four
Tell the people what he's for...
He's for those bitchy, crazy , naughty baby
With nothing but a sexy body
That he's too, for the first time we met
He has this itsy-bitsy, tinnie-winnie
Brainy of a baby hipie
And he's dumped though he wanted to stay

One, two, three, four
I slam his face into my door

Five, six, seven, eight
Sorry honey but it's too late...

---> Bikini open hunk inspired by the yellow polka dot bikini song, improved and styled with sarcasm and sense of humor of the one and only Indira Margareth Parayno. Indulge for the hopefully last bitter entry about a guy I used to love and learned to hate. And for the guy im reffering to,,, sorry dude but that 's what i really felt at that very moment... Cant blame me because you really suck! Sorry again... PEACE OUT!!!!

Rotten Institution

Money, dough, bread, scratch, bucks, cash, mullah, datung and kwarta.... called in so many names but refers to one and only important thing in this material world. Yeah, baby!!!! MONEY!!! Money that makes the world go round. Reality bites,,, it's true.
For some people who doesn't know much about me, this is Indira. A nineteen year-old lady studying at WCC which stands for We Collect Cash, este, World Citi. Colleges. I am currently at the third year level taking up BS Nursing at a campus or should i say a structural building where money matters most. Yes, you saw that clearly,,, "where money matters most," and not learning....
I don't mean to brag but to make my point even more clear for you,,, you need to be equipped with lotsa mullahs for you to stay and study at this school. And the school itself,,, yes, it's complete with facilities, rotten rules and corrupt individuals that runs the school for business. Yep,, im talking about their great, big vision of being the most corrupt and wealthiest people in the Philippines... and their vision for their students, to be a better bum than anyone else in the world. A vision of a globally competitive graduates that will always and forever be reaching and hoping for the best and dreaming, and dreaming, and dreaming for success. Exaggerated na noh.... Hindi, joke lang tlga un. But jokes are half-meant, remember...

Learning is a right, it is not a privilege.....
Everyone is entitled the chance to study and learn. As an educational institution, their job is to make sure that students who enrolled at their school are given the proper knowledge they have to acquire specially if they're parents payed for high tuiton fees. But what i see in this school is that students are being used as an instrument for stealing. Injustice and corruption is wide-spread and seen not under the table but proudly, legally... Ayoko na nga,, kung ano ano na nasasabi ko eh.

Evidences that will show the truth will de given,,, and circumstances that will explain why am I so angry will be sited.

Rotten Reality #1
The head of the clinical instructors discouraged me not to presue my studies. How did that happen? well, I came to her office to discuss her the unfair and health-threatening condition af our group's schedule of duty. A month of a graveyard shift duty in the hospital (10pm-6am) is unfair and too much for us specially this coming preliminary exams. The response I got from her.... "EH DI SANA HINI KA NA NAG-NURSING," she delivers with a loud voice. As the head of the school's clinical instructors, and as an educator, it is her duty to encourage and not discourage students to love what they're doing. Talking about a good motivator ah...

Rotten Reality #2
Make-up duties that cost too much. an P80(+) per hour or P1,500 a day of make-up duty is unjust and very expensive for students specially if the cause of absence is excused. what if the student has been sick and was admitted to the hospital. Parents are not only gonna worry about the hospital expenses and medications but they also have to worry about the payment of make-up duties their child has to have.

Rotten Reality #3
P900(+) worth of testing materials included in our miscellaneous fee. How can you explain the circumstances wherein we have to pay our teacher first for the testing material that she will be providing us before we can get our exams. And take note,,, even blue books or answer booklet is for sale.

Rotten Reality #4
NO STUDENT ORG/COUNCIL/AFFAIRS!!!! How can students voice out and express their thoughts???
Hay,,, ayoko na... Nakakapagod na!